The Surrender Experiment

I’m not that great at reviews so I’ll get right to the point.



Honestly, I believe it’s changed my life.

It’s a memoir, one man’s journey…to himself.

It’s a FASCINATING read.

I don’t think everyone will get the same thing out of reading it. I don’t believe it will speak to everyone. It’ll have a different message for everyone.

Mine was/IS:




I’m a very controlling person so I say NO to a lot of things because I want control everything. I often hold an energy of ‘YOU CAN’T TELL ME WHAT TO DO.’ Even if it’s a really fucking good idea, I’ll just say NO just to say NO! I’m kind of a brat but this has also been a defense mechanism, protecting me from things I feel I need protection from. So this works sometimes. Sometimes it’s appropriate to say NO. But I no longer feel I need to protect myself. So when I read this book and the author, Michael Singer’s, experience saying YES to everything that showed up in his life, I was BLOWN AWAY (there are lots of other points to the book but this is one of the main ones). I think it spoke to me so much, and on a deep soul level, because it’s time I trust. Fully trust. And say YES. TO MY LIFE. (for fuck’s sake. finally say YES to my life!!)

Since I’ve started saying YES, things have been flowing better than I could’ve ever imagined. I even said YES recently to something and then something else came on my radar. So I said YES to that. Hilariously it was something I had previously said NO to. Ah, but the Universe knows better! It was perfect. Everything flowed just perfectly. The Universe gave me EXACTLY what I needed. The first thing I said YES to was a very benign thing and it didn’t matter that I said YES to something else, I would not have said YES to thing 2 if it would’ve (just wanted to clarify, I’m not haphazardly saying YES and not being mindful of my actions).

Like I said, I don’t think everyone will get the same message out of this book but the story of Michael’s life is amazing and I think most of us could benefit from whatever message is pulled out. Or in my case, JUMPED OUT AND SLAPPED ME IN DA FACE. 😀

Michael also wrote The Untethered Soul, which I’m reading now. It’s good stuff as well.

Have you read it? Tell us what you thought of it!

Are you going to read it? Awesome! You should.

Any amazing books like this you can recommend? I’d love to hear and I’m sure others would as well.

The next book I want to read is Big Magic by Elizabeth Gilbert who wrote Eat. Pray. Love.

Feel free to share your recommendations.



I went to the Love Yoga Fest on Cape Cod and did no yoga

And it was 100% by choice.

Because this was an AWESOME opportunity to do a lot of inspiring and fun yoga as well as traditional and new kinds of yoga.

Well, I did bust out into this pose so there is some yoga right there.

yoga pose 8:14
i love me a balance pose somethin’ crazy and this was not staged at all, btw 😀










We arrived a little late on Saturday (the first whole day) and I was sad to have missed Jacqui Bonwell‘s early morning class. She is amazing. If you can ever take a class with her, do it! Like really do it. ASAP.

BUT! It was nice to sleep in and arrive with no agenda, except to help a little with Vinnie Arnone’s tent for his business Cabo Cado.

The first thing Mrs. Cabo Cado, Claudia, and I did was register with Kate, one of the Love. Live. Local gals, making not only this fest but a whole gang of things happen on Cape Cod, it’s pretty cool what they are up to.

She was so helpful, the whole event was well organized and there were lots of volunteers to keep things flowing.

The Love Yoga Fest logo was designed by Vinnie Arnone of Cabo Cado fame
The Love Yoga Fest logo was designed by Vinnie Arnone of Cabo Cado fame








Then we juiced up with some Local Juice made by Delicious Living founder, Nicole Cormier. Nicole is running quite an inspiring business on Cape Cod, it is exciting to see! I hear she has a few interns helping her and I am a big fan of this!! Go Nicole!!

I had the delish 'Rooted' juice with beets, kale, pineapple, fennel, lemon and cayenne
Here I am with Mrs Cabo Cado while we were enjoying our juice! She had the ‘Nourish’ and I had the ‘Rooted’ juice with beets, kale, pineapple, fennel, lemon and cayenne. Yum!!












Then we chilled at the Cabo Cado tent while Vinnie sold his bags, tees, koozies, postcards and pins to the world. I am so proud of him and his business and the connections he is making.

Then off we went to our first class.

These Cape Cod beach totes make the PERFECT yoga bag. Fits everything and more.
These Cape Cod beach totes make the PERFECT yoga bag. Fits everything and more.









Since I was in the most relaxed mode (this mama was kid and care free for a whole day!), I chose to begin my ‘yoga’ day with Gentle Yoga with Healing Crystal Bowls.

Honestly, I signed up for whatever classes sounded like I would probably be lying down the whole time.

And that is what I pretty much did in this class for an hour and a half.


With Bettina Ann Brown leading the class and Kathleen Warren on the bowls….

Well, I wish I could tell you what happened but I am not really sure.

We were led on a relaxing but deeply powerful journey to balance our body, mind, spirit and chakras.

I think I may have done a child’s pose or cat/cow or two but mostly I just laid there and allowed the sound of the bowls and Bettina’s voice to take me away to the most wonderful place.

I was so deeply relaxed after this class and pretty blissed out.

Yay yoga!

Off to the second class….

I chose another fairly mellow sounding class called 7 Healing Mudras led by Diane Kovanda of Kind Yoga.

She taught us about Hand Mudras – symbols you make with your hands. You can then hold them over your chakras as you breathe and let them do their magic.

And magic certainly did occur.

This simple and gentle practice blew open my two upper chakras (third eye and crown) so much that it was like I was so so very high.

I stared at this for quite a while, a sure indication of being high.

green stuff growing in bark. wow man.... it is pretty cool though
green stuff growing in bark. wow man…. it is pretty cool though










Diane has the most wonderful way about her and made this class fun, real and obviously, powerful. She has a yoga teacher training coming up so I would check that out if you are interested.

After the first class and then this one, well, I was RIPE for not only feeling bliss but also being completely present and ever so relaxed with what is.

It was pretty much the best feeling ever and one I want to be in touch with as often as possible.

Yay ‘yoga’!

All of what I did was of course yoga. But not the kind we traditionally think of. I personally feel this kind of yoga, the kind where you allow yourself to tap into the magic that is all around us without working too hard, where there is a fair amount of surrender, where you can really relax, well it is just as good if not better than the more physical types. Just my opinion and where I’m at.

I then took my high and blissed out ass back to the Cabo Cado tent where Vinnie was still rockin’ it out.

I also rolled on the grass, walked by the water, met some great vendors and actually did a few downdogs on the lawn.

The location of the Love Yoga fest at Asleton Park in Hyannis was perfect.

From what I hear, the rest of the day was great and ended with a performance by MC Yogi. Sunday was another event filled day and I wish I could have been there.

Next year I will for sure!

I can’t tell you how impressed I was at this event and all the work that went into it.

Kudos to all those involved and see you next year if not sooner!

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Connecting to your light

There is a light that is inside each and every one of us and it shines very, very brightly.

Yesterday, I could not connect to this light and I think that is one of the reasons I was so darn cranky.

I picture this light as being an elongated diamond or a tall candle light that shines a very bright, yet soft white light, permeating through us stemming from our core area.

I think I feel crankiest when my outside self, be it my physical body or my mental state, feels so so very far from this light.

Because I have felt and connected with this light many times over the past few years and it feels so good.

And effortless too.

The times I have felt it most is when I have not been doing anything and to be truthful, I wasn’t trying to connect with it at all. A few times it really came out of the blue like the most perfect gift from the universe.

These times of connection brought deep inner peace, a calm sense that all is well, and joy was all around. And life was not any different. There were no outward changes (that one might associate with feeling good like a money windfall, weight loss, a new love, or some sort of material gain). The only thing that had changed was me and my thoughts. The times this came out of the blue, I seemed to have cultivated it by not trying to do anything at all. Seriously, a few times recently I have just stopped. Stopped trying, stopped striving, stopped obsessing about the past and future and just spent time being.

So if you resonate with anything I am saying, just try this.

See what happens if you stop trying so hard. This does not mean you don’t do your best or stop having goals or dreams. But I know for me, I have spent a lot of time in the past few years strangling the universe trying to make things happen. Being desperately attached to outcome, time, and details. When I stopped all that, I actually became more creative and more abundant (especially in the things that mattered). I would not have traded in the peace and joy I felt for anything in the world.

I do get frustrated when this connection gets lost and I feel so far from it. This usually occurs when I begin trying to control everything again and thinking I can make this connection stronger, better, fancier. 🙂 But I will tell you as I will remind myself. Have faith. It is there. We are only human and cannot be in this light 100% of the time. No, I truly believe we cannot in our human state. Does that mean every time we are away from it life sucks? No, we are just living and experiencing the world and as we all know, it’s not always a party. But can we live near this light and spend lots and lots of time bouncing around it? Yes, I know we can. And the more we all believe, breathe, trust, let go, smile, and have some fun, we can spend more time than not with this light we all share, that is for all of us to experience and enjoy.

I truly believe that it is up to you to come up with your own special way to keep your connection strong. Be it mediation, prayer, being in nature, throwing fun parties, spending more time with your kids, being more creative, helping others, just being quiet or all of the above, there is no one way, just your way. And we all deserve it. The world is a much better place with happier people around. And remember, I don’t mean happy, shiny people who no one can relate to. Live your life with all the ups and downs and connect with your light as often as you can.

Please share your thoughts on this and any suggestions you have with connecting with your light and your true self more often.