My Biggest Fear

I was going to write a post this week about what I am eating these days but that gem is just gonna have to wait. And as will you 🙂

I want to talk about what I am afraid of most. 

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A bit over a year ago I took a self-imposed break from all things internet.

Email, facebook, all social media, and general internet ‘browsing.’

QUIT!

All of it!

Even tv (yup, even my beloved The Bold and The Beautiful was not on every day at 1:30pm).

It was hard at first.

I had anxiety and didn’t quite know what to do with myself.

But then, after about three weeks, things came together.

I was fine. 🙂

And a strong message came through.

LOVE

The message was all about love.

I even painted these:

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The message that had come across once I hushed all the external chatter from everywhere was:

Share love

Give love

Be love

Shout about love!

I cried.

I was sad and confused for a bit.

But my soul felt like it had come home.

My soul WANTS to be a cheerleader and a superhero for the forgotten part of US ALL that is a bright shiny light of love and stuff that makes us US.

But I have, since I was little, believed that being my own shiny light or celebrating others bright shiny light was stupid and that I should just be quiet and sit in the corner.

So I am afraid to shine my light.

And worse, I am afraid to champion for you to shine your light.

I am afraid to be called ‘A little Mary Sunshine.’

OMG :::shudder:::

Seriously, I do not want to be considered a Polly Anna or like someone who thinks we all crap rainbows and kittens (wouldn’t that hurt anyway?!?!).

Maybe I made up this lie about not being a shiny light.

Maybe it was taught to me.

Who cares. It does not matter.

Because now…

I am over it.

O-V-E-R IT!!

Because I have been carrying this lie around with me wearing it like a badge for far FAR too long.

So…now, NOW, while I am still afraid….

I am going for it.

I am going to cheerlead and be a superhero for…

POSSIBILITY

FREEDOM

LOVE

MIRACLES

I am still afraid but have realized it is time to step into what it is I am here to do.

It is time to get out of my own way.

So I can help you…

DO THE EXACT SAME THING.

Yup.

There I said it.

I am going to talk about

POSSIBILITY

FREEDOM

LOVE

&

MIRACLES 

…and sometimes even talk about THE DIVINE (in us, around us, and how awesome it is and how close it is to all of us). And probably talk about rainbows and kittens cuz rainbows are awesome and kittens are cute.

But also talk about how…

it is sometimes hard to connect with all those things, it can feel like a stretch, too Polly Anna, or that we are not worthy.

BUT I want you to know this…

that when we do connect with love, miracles, the divine, possibility and freedom, or when we just surrender and let ourselves look into that shiny bright part of ourselves (and others)

well…

life begins to flow…

miracles begin to happen…

possibility presents itself…

life feels freer…

love is there…

just as it has always been…

and your light begins to shine as it always has wanted to!

I am here to guide us to that place where we can all shine

NO 

MATTER

WHAT

Are you in?

Join me!

Let’s all get into that expansive, free, loving, miraculous place where life is full of possibility!

And should you fall (or forget)…

Well, I am here to pick you up.

I am hear to remind you.

You are a bright shiny light that deserves to shine and thrive. 

HEY!

We are all in it together.

So…

This is my biggest fear.

Saying all this.

Being this way.

Worrying what people will think.

I worry that I cannot uphold this all the time.

I fear upsetting people who think all this talk is bullshit.

I am conscious that I have ‘tried’ to do many other things (hello, acupuncture?? raw food?? psychic?? blogger??) and that some may be wary of this ‘new’ thing. But I know it brings all of my strengths together so I can do the work I am here to do. I know in my heart that this feels like the most expansive thing I have ever done and that I can create this umbrella in which to work under and do all the things I want to do to help others.

So I am putting fear aside.

So I can move forward.

And more importantly…help you do the same!

So I hope you will join me. I have lots coming up so stay tuned!!

With possibility, freedom, love and miracles for all,

Adrienne

Your Head Cheerleader and Superhero for Possibility, Freedom, Love & Miracles

P.S. If this post spoke to you – YAY! Awesome! Please leave a comment to let me know what you think and any of your struggles. ALSO – I am doing a FREE online 30-day class in September called CONNECTION, POSSIBILITY, AND YOU so be sure to sign up for my email updates to be the first to know about the details and to sign up! And head on over to my Facebook page – there is always something fun going on over there! 

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12 thoughts on “My Biggest Fear”

  1. As wicked pissah as I thought you were in the 80s, I’m so glad I know how wicked pissah you are now 🙂 xxxx

  2. I’m all for your shining light and would love to share in your love and possibilities as long as you’ll still drink with me 🙂

  3. So beautiful Adrienne, reminds me of what Jesus said in the scripture Matthew 5:14, “You are the Light of the World, let your light shine brightly before all, that they may see the good that you do and give Glory to God” ❤

  4. WOW – Very inspirational! I’m proud of you! Are you sure you still want to drink wine , maybe indulge in a seafood salad pocket?

  5. Dear Adrienne,
    Beautiful ! Simple beautiful what you are doing! It touched my heart in so many ways. You are reaching out
    many people with your videos and your words. Keep doing! That’s your purpose!
    Life is a miracle !
    Love

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